If I were to be truly me, would you accept me?
Whole-heatedly?
Or would you talk about me behind my back when no one can see?
Would you still respect and love me unconditionally
Or would you treat me disrespectfully?
Am I really ready to give it up willingly?
The chance at peace and normalcy.
I don't know, I know how people are
Staring and acting like you're something so bizarre.
Someone said I'd rather be me than anyone else
but is that really the truth?
Before sleep, I'd like to see how they really felt.
The world hating them for being true
The problem isn't them, clearly it's you.
How dare you think being you is okay
Fix yourself, get it together and get ready to play
The game of life. Not for them to be comfortable I say
but for you so you can survive from day-to-day.
Wednesday, November 18, 2009
On to the next one
I have a bad case of senioritis right now. I don't want to go to class...do work...sit in lecture or read anybody's articles. I just want to move on to the next stage of my life. Ann Arbor is soooo whack to me right now. I've been here for four years and I'm over it. I'm over the people, the city and everything about this place. Yea I'm gonna miss my friends, the open-mindedness of its residents and the other things it has to offer but I just want something new. Personally, I get tired of things quickly from TV shows to relationships. I just don't have the attention span to devote me energy to one thing for an extended period of time.
I am excited and anxious about graduating. Excited because I need a new scenery and will be departing Michigan immediately but anxious because of the job market and the economy. I am one step closer to Teach For America so I'm hoping all goes well and I am chosen to teach our future leaders. I am still debating whether to go somewhere warm or stay somewhere cold. Being in a warmer climate I would be happier because I dislike the cold and it would benefit me health-wise. However I have more family and friends in colder places and it would be closer to home compared to the South or out West.
I just need to be me, meet new people and enjoy life which seems impossible here at UofM.
I am excited and anxious about graduating. Excited because I need a new scenery and will be departing Michigan immediately but anxious because of the job market and the economy. I am one step closer to Teach For America so I'm hoping all goes well and I am chosen to teach our future leaders. I am still debating whether to go somewhere warm or stay somewhere cold. Being in a warmer climate I would be happier because I dislike the cold and it would benefit me health-wise. However I have more family and friends in colder places and it would be closer to home compared to the South or out West.
I just need to be me, meet new people and enjoy life which seems impossible here at UofM.
Lights, camera, ACTION
If you know me then you know that I am a very closed off guy who keeps to himself. Yes I have tons of friends, associates and frat but only a chosen few truly know the real me. I am a realistic type. I don't get emotional because I feel like emotions are useless. Maybe it was the way I was raised. There is no doubt that my family loves each other and we are close but I can't recall ever telling my parents I love them or vice versa. And the thing is that I don't need to hear it. It is implied and I know they do. For me actions speak louder than words. The last phrase really speaks to my character and may be the reason I don't care for feelings. Yes you can weep, exclaim or have joyous outbursts to tell me much you care for, love or respect me but if you don't act on it then they are simply just words and a waste of my time.
Okay you say you are my best friend but if you don't act like it then I can tell you don't value our friendship. You may proclaim that you're my frat but if you lack brotherhood then I have no interest in building our bond. This is not to say I'm a mean person at all because I give everyone an opportunity and then some. I just have come to a point in my life where I am realizing there are a lot of irrelevant people in my life who are trying to play a major role in it. If you really do want a lead then be sincere, honest, patient and most of all remember that your actions speak louder than words.
Okay you say you are my best friend but if you don't act like it then I can tell you don't value our friendship. You may proclaim that you're my frat but if you lack brotherhood then I have no interest in building our bond. This is not to say I'm a mean person at all because I give everyone an opportunity and then some. I just have come to a point in my life where I am realizing there are a lot of irrelevant people in my life who are trying to play a major role in it. If you really do want a lead then be sincere, honest, patient and most of all remember that your actions speak louder than words.
Saturday, August 8, 2009
What's good wit TRILL
Aight so Trill has been ghost lately but we've been workin hard for yall.
*Check out the new music video for "Better Believe It" featuring Boosie, Jeezy and Webbie. If you haven't heard it in the club or on the radio, it's a hot new single.
*Boosie's album drops SEPTEMBER 15th so make sure you cop that when it hits the stores. Also Boosie will be on Radio One's Russ Parr Bus Tour along with artists such as Bobby Valentino, The New Boyz, Hurrican Chris, Dorrough, Ace Hood and others.
*Check out MTV's article about Boosie and the making of his video for "Better Believe It."
*Here's the new joint from Webbie and Lil Phat, "Do It Bigger"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KanE2FVGFro
Aight that's all for now. Check out the info above and lemme know what you think.
As always thanks for your continued support.
*Check out the new music video for "Better Believe It" featuring Boosie, Jeezy and Webbie. If you haven't heard it in the club or on the radio, it's a hot new single.
*Boosie's album drops SEPTEMBER 15th so make sure you cop that when it hits the stores. Also Boosie will be on Radio One's Russ Parr Bus Tour along with artists such as Bobby Valentino, The New Boyz, Hurrican Chris, Dorrough, Ace Hood and others.
*Check out MTV's article about Boosie and the making of his video for "Better Believe It."
*Here's the new joint from Webbie and Lil Phat, "Do It Bigger"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KanE2FVGFro
Aight that's all for now. Check out the info above and lemme know what you think.
As always thanks for your continued support.
Tuesday, July 14, 2009
Help a Brotha Out!
I was randomly thinking about the current state of black people and this is what I have concluded (this should apply to all minority groups despite race).
If you know me then you know I'd be the first person to point out that social injustices exist to this day despite all the movements, civil rights leaders and laws and policies put into place in our country. However, sometimes enough is enough. Yes "the man" is alive and kicking...yes it is hard for any minority to succeed in American society. Specifically racial groups that exist in the United States due to the fact this country was founded and built upon racism. To go even further it is particularly difficult for African Americans because of the distinct Black-White relations and the brutal past Blacks have had in this country. I say all of this to show you I understand the plights of our people however it is time to stop pointing the finger at the White man. Yes we have had a very unfortunate past but it is time to make the best of our present opportunities to ensure a fruitful future not only for ourselves but our children. I will be highly upset in my old age if my people grow content because they see Obama as "making it" and the peak of our achievement. Yes electing Obama to the highest office in this land is remarkable but can our entire race not long to achieve success such as this.
We have ensured that one of our own has attained his dream by becoming the 44th President of the United States but now is the time to aid our general population in achieving their goals even if it doesn't pale in comparison to Commander in Chief. Once upon a time in American history our people were self-sufficient- this was a time after Emancipation and before integration. They were self-employed, they conducted business amongst each other and there were multiple black cities and towns that flourished throughout this country. Blacks made sure that others that looked like them succeeded by supporting each other in all facets of life. However, shortly after the Civil Rights Movement ended so did this progressive behavior. (One may say this was caused by the end of segregation but that's an entire blog post within itself.) One thing is for sure...we don't support each other like we need to. One person's success is meaningless if he/she isn't willing to share it with others. We'd rather steal, kill and degrade each instead of uplifting one another. And if you look back fifty or so years, this kind of behavior isn't getting us anywhere. We are still suffering from poverty, poor education and crime. So I challenge you to lend a helping hand to your brother or sister because what's the point of "making it" if you don't have others around you to enjoy it with.
"Yes, societal issues exist within our country but placing the blame on others will only get us so far. It is time for us to invest in our culture, our people, and ourselves if we intend to progress."
If you know me then you know I'd be the first person to point out that social injustices exist to this day despite all the movements, civil rights leaders and laws and policies put into place in our country. However, sometimes enough is enough. Yes "the man" is alive and kicking...yes it is hard for any minority to succeed in American society. Specifically racial groups that exist in the United States due to the fact this country was founded and built upon racism. To go even further it is particularly difficult for African Americans because of the distinct Black-White relations and the brutal past Blacks have had in this country. I say all of this to show you I understand the plights of our people however it is time to stop pointing the finger at the White man. Yes we have had a very unfortunate past but it is time to make the best of our present opportunities to ensure a fruitful future not only for ourselves but our children. I will be highly upset in my old age if my people grow content because they see Obama as "making it" and the peak of our achievement. Yes electing Obama to the highest office in this land is remarkable but can our entire race not long to achieve success such as this.
We have ensured that one of our own has attained his dream by becoming the 44th President of the United States but now is the time to aid our general population in achieving their goals even if it doesn't pale in comparison to Commander in Chief. Once upon a time in American history our people were self-sufficient- this was a time after Emancipation and before integration. They were self-employed, they conducted business amongst each other and there were multiple black cities and towns that flourished throughout this country. Blacks made sure that others that looked like them succeeded by supporting each other in all facets of life. However, shortly after the Civil Rights Movement ended so did this progressive behavior. (One may say this was caused by the end of segregation but that's an entire blog post within itself.) One thing is for sure...we don't support each other like we need to. One person's success is meaningless if he/she isn't willing to share it with others. We'd rather steal, kill and degrade each instead of uplifting one another. And if you look back fifty or so years, this kind of behavior isn't getting us anywhere. We are still suffering from poverty, poor education and crime. So I challenge you to lend a helping hand to your brother or sister because what's the point of "making it" if you don't have others around you to enjoy it with.
"Yes, societal issues exist within our country but placing the blame on others will only get us so far. It is time for us to invest in our culture, our people, and ourselves if we intend to progress."
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
The Black Man
I just got finished watching a video clip of some teens eluding the police while driving recklessly, endangering lives on their joy ride. What got me thinking and upset was the response of the cops after the teens were finally caught. From what I could tell from the video they were not handcuffed, even if they were it doesn't matter. The police offers were actually calmly standing next to the perpetrator(s) having a conversation with them. They inquired were they hurt, why they did this and other foolywang. Not to my surprise these teenagers belonged to the privileged class in this society...meaning they were White.
From all the videos I've seen in the news where Blacks were being pursued by cops, never have I ever seen a police officer have a normal and sincere conversation with them. I am by no means saying the Blacks didn't break the law but I'm simply making it aware that the law works differently depending on the color of your skin. When Blacks and Hispanics are engaged in criminal acts they are automatically seen as dangerous and cops shoot first ask questions later. It's no secret that minorities have been injured and killed for less than eluding the police and reckless driving like these White teens from Howell.
What comes to mind are stories where a Black man was killed for just reaching in his pocket because the cops thought his wallet/ID/whatever was a gun or pulling a Black man out of his car and holding him to the ground with a knee in his neck because he fits "the description" of a wanted criminal. In a society that is based on racism and racial discrimination it is evident that the law does not work in my or any Black man's favor.
The sad thing is that many of us really do try to do well and dispel the stereotypes set upon us but when you are constantly told that you are worthless then is it any wonder that the Black man is in his current situation?Is it any wonder they are more likely to be sitting in a prison or grave because it is easier to find shelter in a jail cell than in the real world or find a gun and drugs than to obtain a job?
And even when the Black man has "made it" people have preconceived notions of his past, present and future. I've seen the visage change on a person when I tell them I attend UofM on the Ann Arbor campus because behind their pupils they quietly (sometimes not so quietly) assume I'm only there because of affirmative action or some sports scholarship. Or in the corporate world they assume you are only there to fill some quota because it could never be a possibility that you are actually qualified for the job.
Don't get me wrong there are good people out there who don't place these stigmas on Black men nor do they exercise discriminatory practices against them but unfortunately it doesn't take an individual or two but a movement to excite change.
I have a love-hate relationship with America...however most of the time I feel myself despising her. :)
From all the videos I've seen in the news where Blacks were being pursued by cops, never have I ever seen a police officer have a normal and sincere conversation with them. I am by no means saying the Blacks didn't break the law but I'm simply making it aware that the law works differently depending on the color of your skin. When Blacks and Hispanics are engaged in criminal acts they are automatically seen as dangerous and cops shoot first ask questions later. It's no secret that minorities have been injured and killed for less than eluding the police and reckless driving like these White teens from Howell.
What comes to mind are stories where a Black man was killed for just reaching in his pocket because the cops thought his wallet/ID/whatever was a gun or pulling a Black man out of his car and holding him to the ground with a knee in his neck because he fits "the description" of a wanted criminal. In a society that is based on racism and racial discrimination it is evident that the law does not work in my or any Black man's favor.
The sad thing is that many of us really do try to do well and dispel the stereotypes set upon us but when you are constantly told that you are worthless then is it any wonder that the Black man is in his current situation?Is it any wonder they are more likely to be sitting in a prison or grave because it is easier to find shelter in a jail cell than in the real world or find a gun and drugs than to obtain a job?
And even when the Black man has "made it" people have preconceived notions of his past, present and future. I've seen the visage change on a person when I tell them I attend UofM on the Ann Arbor campus because behind their pupils they quietly (sometimes not so quietly) assume I'm only there because of affirmative action or some sports scholarship. Or in the corporate world they assume you are only there to fill some quota because it could never be a possibility that you are actually qualified for the job.
Don't get me wrong there are good people out there who don't place these stigmas on Black men nor do they exercise discriminatory practices against them but unfortunately it doesn't take an individual or two but a movement to excite change.
I have a love-hate relationship with America...however most of the time I feel myself despising her. :)
Monday, July 6, 2009
Me...right now
Aight so I'm bored and feel like talking about myself lol. So this is what's on my mind:
I was re-reading "The Golden Compass" but I decided I needed to blog and take care of some business...an hour or so later I'm still blogging...womp.
I'm over clubs. Ish was fun when I was in high school and freshmen year in college but I honestly don't like them and would prefer to chill at a bar/lounge or a house party any day.
A lot of times I don't speak my mind to be nice. I never really regret doing so.
When I get mad, I get extra quiet. I NEVER talk about my feelings regardless of how close we are, especially if I feel like nothing will be accomplished by doing so.
I'm a very private person. If you know about my family, history, goals and ambitions it means we are gonna be friends forever and I've known you for a while/trust you. If not...don't be offended, like I said I'm a private person.
I am actually very knowledgeable about random things but people may never know it because I don't like to be aggressive or overwhelming.
I'm only sarcastic to people I like. If I don't joke around with you then...sucks to be you! lol
'tis all for now.
I was re-reading "The Golden Compass" but I decided I needed to blog and take care of some business...an hour or so later I'm still blogging...womp.
I'm over clubs. Ish was fun when I was in high school and freshmen year in college but I honestly don't like them and would prefer to chill at a bar/lounge or a house party any day.
A lot of times I don't speak my mind to be nice. I never really regret doing so.
When I get mad, I get extra quiet. I NEVER talk about my feelings regardless of how close we are, especially if I feel like nothing will be accomplished by doing so.
I'm a very private person. If you know about my family, history, goals and ambitions it means we are gonna be friends forever and I've known you for a while/trust you. If not...don't be offended, like I said I'm a private person.
I am actually very knowledgeable about random things but people may never know it because I don't like to be aggressive or overwhelming.
I'm only sarcastic to people I like. If I don't joke around with you then...sucks to be you! lol
'tis all for now.
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